How do you pass the past?!

What can you do, when nagging deep within you is a love of the past, and it just won't fully go away?! How much you long to be rid of this agony, but at the same time, how much you want the past to be real again!

Is it a sign from God when the past just won't go away, or is Satan forever dangling it in your face?! You never truly know, until God shows you.

Everyday, I pray to God for his will, but is part of his will, my past?!

I can't fall down, knowing there is hope, neither can I stand up knowing its hopeless! But I know neither, so how shall I lie, or how shall I stand?!

So, I am sitting, not quite without hope, and not quite with it, just sitting, forever waiting for God's complete plan! For I know that God does not do anything without a purpose, and all I long for is the purpose, and plan of God! When will God stop hiding the truth from me?! When will I once again see what needs to be seen, and avoid those things which are evil?! I know only God himself can answer.

So, how do I sit, until I know whether the past is the future, or the past is forever lost?! Please help me Lord, for in my heart, I want to please you, in all that I do, show me the way, and I will not stray, forever in the pages of your living word! God bless!