Until the Whole World Hears!

People are always out to get us, the size of our family is scoffed at, my parents declared insane, and us kids declared a real nuisance to the the parents. Its hard to live in a world where everyone scoffs at your family, at you, your looks, or where you work! But Christian, we have GOD! We don't need to fear sinful man anymore, we can fight the good fight! Who cares if the world doesn't like your family, GOD does! Who cares that the world doesn't like you, GOD does! Who's opinion matters more? Think about Christian, who's opinion do you care about more? For truly GOD's opinion matters more than any mortal man!

But we can still help the world, even if we be but a small part in the world! No matter how undeserving the people of this world may be, we are no different! Unless you are willing to judge yourself the way you want to judge others, don't judge! I have found myself judging others, but I have no room to talk!
What we need to do as Christians, is spread the word, the truth, and grace to those who are humbled by God's law. People are only truly convicted under the light of the law, and so we must first present the law, until the mouth is stopped, and then share the good news! Christian, we should not rest, until the whole world hears! For we will lay down the cares of this world, and pick up the Law of GOD! God speed to you Christian, speak the truth! Thank you for reading and God bless!

Best Friends are Wonderful!

Everyday God shows me how wonderful friends really are! They can never be replaced! If I had nothing of value in life, except friends, I know I could still go on! My friends make me feel special, important, smart, and blessed beyond all measure! My friends, Shannon, Andy, Lauren, Laura, Katrina, Gerard, Ming, Ruth, Lydia, Kelly, and all of my other friends are the best gift God could give me, besides my life, and my family! Everyday, I am greeted with a smile, or a sweet little message on windows live saying Good morning and how are you doing? And those awesome emails that tell me how much I am missed, or how excited that friend is to see me on my next trip! My friends know what to say when I am sad, or hurt, cause sometimes they know me better than my own siblings. When God gave us the blessing of friends, he knew what he was doing, and I will always thank God for his priceless gifts he gave to me in friends! Yes my friends, without God, and without you, my world would look very dark indeed! I want to personally thank you from the bottom of my heart, for being a friend to a sinner like me! I do not deserve you, but thank God he has blessed me all the same! A friend is one who will stand by your side, hold you when you cry, and tell you everything is going to be all right, and no matter what may come, your friend is sure to be your chum! Thank you God for the wonderfully blessing of my best friends, bless them to the full Lord, and never leave them! Thank you for reading and God bless!

Missing someone

Have you ever tried to forget something you considered bad, or something you considered good, or forget someone that used to be ever so special to you, that is still special no matter how hard you try to forget?!
I find the past comes knocking when life is at the height of stress and the tiredness of the soul. I have fought in vain, memories of lost loved ones, but to no avail! I can still see those people as clearly as the sun rising in the morning and setting in the evening, and I pray everyday that God would make it all a bad dream, or that God would turn it all around, and cause conviction and faith of the Lord to make it beautiful again.
Not even all of these lost ones are dead, but are supposed to be dead to me, as I will never see them again. The pain I feel at losing a friend, or a family member, is something that causes me to go away into my own thoughts, where I don't have to try to hide my pain anymore.
2 and a half years ago, I lost 3 family members all within 3 months, the funerals opened my eyes to how unfair life really is, it is never going to be easy. The very next year after these funerals, I lost 2 of my loved friends with in a week, saying good bye was the hardest thing I have ever done.
You see Christian, God is always making sure that your eyes are on him at all times. He wants you to relay on him, not on other people, as I did with my loved one, I put that person in the place where they didn't belong. I thought of them always, and their name was the first to pass my lips often in the morning...so God took that person from me! I blame myself entirely, and as I turn my life back to God, I promise myself and God, I will never place a loved one in that place of importance again, cause I never again want to loose someone that special that way again! The faces of my dead and alive lost loved ones haunt my sight when my heart is sad, I can see them smiling, and sometimes I still can't believe they are gone, that I will see them again soon, and not never again as it is.
Christian, when you loose someone special, it will be hard! But you can stay focused on God, and the burden will lighten under his mercy! Call out to him in times of trouble! If the faces of lost loved ones fade, they are supposed to, but don't try to hard to remember, cause if you will see them again, that is a surprise for the future, one that only God can tell! Thank you for reading and God Bless!

The Cleaning Day

Do you ever have those days when you mom all of a sudden says, "Ok kids we are not going to do school today, we are just going to clean all day instead!" One pain for another right?! But it is still very rewarding.
We did do school yesterday, but right afterward we were off to work! One part of the work was to go through all of our stuff...I mean ALL of it! Clothes, toys, books, CD's, DVD's, and pictures! Whatever you did not deem worthy to stick around went into the trash, or give away! The only things I really got rid of was clothes, ones that didn't fit any more. Whatever I kept, I rearranged to look nice and neat. This is a picture of my lofted bed, after some remaking and hanging up some pictures! As you can see its my little get away, my tiny alcove where I can hide. It even has a plug in up there so I can take my lab top up there and watch a movie or play some games. After going through the things we had out, we then went through our spring clothes, even though with this snow storm, spring doesn't look any closer. I told my family that our friends who live down in the warmer places are jealous of our snow, and my sister Sarah said, "THEY CAN HAVE IT! Ha ha! I found that funny. We do have way too much snow! You have to at least have all your school work done, and you have gone through all of your belongings, and do your normal house work before your aloud to go and play with friends. Its alot of sacrifice, but if you want to have friends over, its worth it!
I had a great time with my friend Katrina yesterday, and sounds like we are going to get back together today, another snow in day, but school is still here for us home school kids, unfortunately! Ugg! What would we do without our friends to escape to?! I would hate to wonder! Hello to all my friends, both those who are the friends I can talk to, and to those friends who are now only friends in spirit! I love you all, and I hope in time I prove myself worthy to have you all for friends!
I end this cleaning post with a goodbye to all my friends! Wouldn't it be wonderful if I could get all my friends over here at the same time?! That would be awesome! Love you Shannon, Andy, Gerard, Ming, Kelly, Amelia, Katrina, Emily, Laura, Ruth, Lauren, the Petersons, and Lydia! God bless you all, and thanks for reading!

An Honest Assessment

What do I mean by an honest assessment? Well, what do you think about yourself? You think your a "good person", good looking, loved by everyone, or a perfect example maybe?
Well, I am not out to get your honest assessment, but I am out to get mine. What you think about yourself will eventually tell you where you really stand.
Over the past several months, I finally see myself for what I am! I am selfish, I love conditionally, I am a lier, I am a murder at heart, I am very proud, I dishonor my parents, I am not worthy of respect or love, and thus I am rejected.
I have failed in so many ways, and yet my family, and my God still love me.....why? I don't deserve anything that I have, I have abused everything so badly! My friends still love me, but they don't know the truth about who I really am. I am a dirty, ugly sinner! I am fighting to get rid of my regard for myself, no one likes a proud person. If anyone that I have harmed in the past reads this, I am sorry, so so sorry about all I have done, and I hope one day you will forgive me! Give me another chance my family, my friends, my God! I don't want to go down, I want to prove with God's help that I am his, and he is mine! God help me die to myself, and give me a new body! Thank you for reading and God bless!

The World's Roller Coaster

In this world, everyone is looking for the fun side of life. Adventure, danger, getting away with it, love, excitement, suspense, and friends. We all have our own idea of what fun should be, but it may not always be the right way to have fun.
The fun in the world, without the Lord, is like a roller coaster. If you like roller coasters, there is one thing you wish most about them.....that the ride lasted longer! But it never does, you can spend up to ten times longer just waiting in line, then it does to ride. If you ever try having fun the world's way, its like this! You got on your ride of fun, expecting it to be so much fun that it is unforgettable. For a while the ride is really exciting, quite the thriller, then all of a sudden.....its over! For the rest of the day you will be happy about what you did, and enjoy your day, thinking, I had so much fun!
But like a roller coaster ride, the fun doesn't last, cause like the roller coaster, you can't take it with you, and make the fun last forever! When you get off, that's it! You will have a memory, that will last alot longer than the feeling you had, and it may be painful. That is why, God is the real joy giver. No matter what happens in the world, God's joy won't leave you! Just like when I experienced turbulence on my first flight. Either it will pass, or it will drag you down to your death. I choose God's "fun" because without God, I am nothing! So the next time your tempted to get on a "roller coaster" think about the end result, and stay with God! Thank you for reading and God bless!

Love Openly!!!

Have you given someone a hug recently? No, not a little side hug, or half hearted hug, I mean a REAL hug! Love is an important everyday thing that we need in order to keep going.
Think about it Christian, without love, we truly would have nothing to look forward to in life! So love someone today, you never know what will happen tomorrow! Love openly! God bless you!

There is a God!

Its impossible for someone to look at the world, themselves, their families, and all they have, and not see that there is a God!
I am almost 19, and even though my life has had many turns, many trials, many sorrows, my life has also been full of blessings and loves! I can say that God he definitely protected my soul, I feel like Satan is working over time to tear my life apart, to make me doubt, but God himself protects me! I feel safe in his arms, he loves me like a father, and I couldn't have asked for a better friend.
Even now, past struggles tempt me to feel sorry for myself, and say to myself that I have not a chance in the world, but I know the exact opposite is true! My mom is pregnant with her 9th child, and I am looking forward to caring for another little sibling. I pray God will guard my family from Satan's attacks. I know its only through God's protection that my family is still soundly saved and together! My God keep it so! I love you Mom, Dad, Seth, Rebecca, Sarah, Abbie, Lydia, Luke, and Benjamin!

Fighting against the pull!

Temptation is a strange thing, we all know what is right and wrong, cause we all have a conscience. But when it comes to something we know we shouldn't do, we have this over whelming want to do it!
Hey, we all get tempted as a test, at least my siblings aren't tempted every time to eat my birthday cake before its time!
Whether we admit it or not, sin looks very tempting! Somethings just don't loose their ugly charm that makes us want to just grab it up and dive head first right into it. But the Bible tells us that sin lasts for but a season.(Hebrews 11:25)
No matter how right it feels, or what good you "think" it might do, its an ugly trick that will fade within the year. I have been tempted to do things that are far out from what is right....but God has protected me, and everyday I thank him for his protection.
Yes I know none of us are going to be able to resist temptation 100% of the time! But that is why we need to turn to God, and ask him to be our protector. With him all things are possible! And with him in your life, you are able to fight against the pull of temptation! God bless and thanks for reading! Keep the comments coming!

A knife in the soul of sin

None of us are perfect, and we sin everyday without fail. As Christians, we hate our sinful nature, and try to learn from our mistakes. If someone else is involved in your sin, being able to ask for forgiveness is important. Sharing your past sins with your loved ones can hurt you, and your loved ones....but being honest with the ones we love is very important to spiritual peace between you.
But sharing your sins can also cause extreme pain later in life with that loved one. True forgiveness means you will never bring up that past sin to your loved one, as a sign of respect to their repentance. But sometimes in anger or sadness, we may bring up the past sin we forgave to hurt that loved one. This is wrong, beyond all, its destructive both mentally and spiritually. When we bring up past sins that we say we "forgave" we were lying, both to ourselves and to the one we forgave.
Without forgiveness there is no true healing of the past, and that person has to start over. If you love someone, never use their sins against them! You may loose your loved ones, and it won't be easy. Again, referring to my posts of love in the past, unconditional love is the love we need to strive to live out. Cause if we love someone unconditionally, no matter what they do, you will love them! Their good and their bad!
I can hear you say, but that person deserved to be punish because of their sin! But Christian, we are no better, and taking revenge is even worse! If we are to judge others, be ready to judge yourself by the same standard. So Christian, love unconditionally, and put and knife in the soul of YOUR sin, not others! God bless and thanks for reading!

A Happy Heart

Ever heard the saying a merry heart doeth good like a medicine? Well, there is alot of truth to this, and it just happens to be a Bible verse!(Proverbs 17:22)
I find that often God will use me to make other people happy, and I often wish that more people wanted to do the same for me. When I am joyful in spirit, I find that my light heart and joyful spirit will easily rub off on others. My humor is easily set off, which means I have a tendency to laugh out loud with unharnessed pleasure! This has often been my down fall and to my great distress can be quite embarrassing!
I am definitely different from other girls, my looks will often be unkept, nor do I struggle to stay clean when I am outside. Just ask my parents, grass stains, mud streaks, you name it! I love to run with my dog out at my grandparents beef farm. I love taking long walks in the afternoon and early evening. Sometimes we don't feel like being merry and loving, every day presents its own little struggles. As I watch my family pull together as we struggle, I thank God he is with us, without him my family would easily be pulled apart. The ability to laugh is important; without the ability to laugh, we are unable to shake our misery. This last year has been probably the hardest for me out of the ones I remember well. But God still somehow makes it easy for me to be joyful even in he midst of distress and sadness. The next time you see someone who is struggling with a heavy heart, help them, making their heart light and merry with glee. We all need to be able to laugh! Thank you for reading and God Bless!

Looking into a mirror

I guess you can say that a very big percentage of the American population looks into the mirror at least 3 to 4 times a day. A vain individual might look into the mirror up to 20 times a day!
The point of this post isn't about the sins of looking into a mirror, so us girls can relax! In a way...it is about sin though.
When we witness to people, we say there are several ways to witness to someone, but only one way is the most effective, and the end results are the ones needed for true Christian conversion.
The Bible tells us that by the law is the knowledge of sin.(Romans 3:20) Paul tell us that he had not known what sin was until he knew the law.(Romans 7:7) God's law, the Ten Commandments, is the mirror we need to look into.
When we look into the mirror, it doesn't lie to us, we see exactly what we look like, and often, we don't like what we see! Its the same with the Ten Commandments, God's perfect law is something we have all broken, either in our hearts, or in our actions. We can't hide from the fact that when we are looking into the "law mirror" we look dirty, ugly, and unworthy! But God loved us so much, that he died for us! He died so that when we look into the "law mirror" we can see ourselves as clean! We are not perfect, and never will be, but because of God's gift to us, we have our evil deeds washed from our lives so that when we enter into heaven, God will say, "Come in child of God, I have been waiting for you!" All we need to do, is realize our sins, and turn from them, and walk toward the light of God's word! So, next time you look into the mirror, remember God's love for you, and his law. Strive to follow him, even when you can't be perfect, our God will never forsake you! (Deu 31:6) God Bless and thanks for reading!